Wow what a day. I Did Deere & Companies South West Office Building, West Office Building and Ground Run Plus all the other stuff we do in the mail room. I am so beat. I didn’t sleep well last night got up at 2:30 am and could not get back to sleep.

Tomorrow is going to be fun. After I get the Dr.s report. I have a party to go to. Carolyn Smith in our mailroom turns 60 on the 5th and they are having a BD party at Jumers Casino and Hotel. Gonna be Fun!

Kristie, Vickie and I were invited as well as the girls in the phone room. Like I said Previously its gonna be a blast. Then I go and spend the weekend at my brothers. Hoping to go out on the boat but don’t know for sure. But it is a gimme that we will be fishing on saturday.

Im going to go pick up some worms at wally world in an hour and head over to the rock and toss my line in. Just chill out and enjoy the rest of the day.

Hope you all have a great week end I know I will.

Well I finally got the guts to go through with it. Thank you darling daughter-in-law Lorie. If it wasn’t for your confidential information to Gene I would never have been pushed into going through with asking for a separation.

I would have just stayed with him AGAIN. Accepting his belittling of me, His disrespect, his ignoring me and leaving me so lonely all the time. Sitting here watching the back of his head while he plays that damn game from sun up to sun down. I would have accepted his being turned off by me.

Thank you for the Push I needed. I know you didn’t do that to help me so tuff shit. It did, and whether he admits it to you or any of the others he has to me, saying yes it is his fault that I have fallen out of love with him. You cant love what you don’t have, you cant love what constantly hurts you or pushes you away. You cant love someone who is repulsed by the very site of you.

And you know I don’t Care if he admits he said these things, Because I know he did.

He wants to show me he can change but he isn’t trying, he wants us to get back together but again he isn’t trying. Through all the years all the chances I have given him he has shown me ONE thing. He never fallows through. He reverts right back to the way it was. Whether it be a day or a week he goes right back.

I will no longer cover up the way he acts, or the things he says or does with the boys to protect them. Its time they saw their real father.

I wish you all good luck and Happiness. That’s all I want and that’s what I am looking for. And You Know What Darling Daughter-in-Law – - – I DON’T NEED A MAN TO FIND IT!

I also want to thank a very SPECIAL FRIEND, Thank you Sweetie For showing me I AM WORTH something. Maybe someday the time will be right. You are a very SPECIAL PERSON. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise! “You deserve to be treated with Class and dignity! To recieve your every dream.” (That’s only part of what I was telling you. What you didn’t understand me saying.) Someday I will tell you the rest. For now I just want to be friends.

OK made the change today. Not so bad now but still not happy.. Any Whoooo.. Got to get some sleep.

Later Taters TTYL